The quiet of the night was punctuated by her heart beating in unison with the wall clock down the hall. Save these two sounds silence closed tightly around her and cloaked her in peace and contentment.
The momentary lull in the turbulence she had been experiencing these past months gave way to thoughts of a time long passed; of simpler days when only her needs where the issue of the day.
The steady pull of the orbit she now found herself in was reassuring as it required no effort on her part to stay the course - other than breathing. At times she found herself testing the gods; how long could she hold her breath before the ticking stopped and the wall clock stood still. She smiled.
It would take much more than a strong orbital pull to break her determination; she would complete this intergalactic journey with or without the help of the gods. In fact, she was finding them a hinderance and at times cast them a stern look from behind darkened glasses - they need not see the tears - but she knew they could feel the burn and the anger and the rage.
The storm had abated, for now; she would relish in the calm knowing it was just a matter of time before all hell broke loose with its demons in full pursuit once again.
She had outrun hell’s wrath before; this evening, tightly wrapped and cloaked in a modicum of peace and contentment, she would let the gentle ticking lull her into a deep and restful sleep.
Tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick, tick...
“She who helps herself is in good hands.”
Jenny Pearson
Whose hands are you in?
Artwork: © Jenny Pearson, Indian Ink, circa 1977
Wonderful writing as usual Jenny. I don't know who's hands I'm in but I'd like to think it's my own haha!
ReplyDeleteHi Matthew - I imagine being in our own hands means we have better control over our own destiny. Besides, being able to pick one's self up and move on is part of the learning curve. It sure is wonderful when others lend a hand but ultimately it fall to each of us to help ourselves.
DeleteI'm thinking of you as you go through some tough times with the passing of you beloved grandmother - consider yourself tightly hugged and tell your mom my heartfelt condolences are being sent her way, this must be difficult for her too.
Love this. Beautiful, Jenny.
ReplyDeleteThank you kindly, dear Tracy Jo - I hope all is well and wonderful in your world.
DeleteI love your saying...GO WITH THE FLOW...seems I am doing just that as I let life pull me where needed - now is not the time to fight the current that has me in its grip. Hugs, Jenny
Lovely to see you here today, jenny. As always, you have a special way with words, and weave a wonderful story. Hoping that all is well with you.
ReplyDeleteHello dear Diane - thank you for dropping by and taking a read. And, as always, you have such a way with your comments. I smile when I see your Avatar - and smiling is what I like doing most of all.
DeleteSo...thank you, for the smile and the comment. Hugs, Jenny.
Jenny!!! I love this. I found it to be pretty deep and it caused me to reflect just a bit. Who's hands am I in? God's and then my own. =)
ReplyDeleteI hope you are doing well, my friend!!
Dear Elsie - I am smiling as I read your wonderful comment. It is in these moments of reflection that we are called upon to get in touch with our deeper self - going in to be able to come out a better, more whole person is part of the journey - whether that's my journey or yours or someone else's - we all give thanks to the hands that hold us up, pull us forward and guide us when the way is dark.
DeleteI am enjoying my journey albeit I could use new batteries for my flashlight and more fuel for my rocket.
Thank you, Elsie, for stopping by - and for inquiring...I am doing well...and I am happy.
Hugs, Jenny
You just made my heart smile, Jenny! I know that your journey is one full of adventure and fun and best of all fulfillment. Sometimes, when those batteries need a little recharge, we just need some light and sunshine and a good ol' stretch. I am so grateful you are happy, Jenny. Many hugs to you too!
DeleteGosh, dear Elsie, seems we are passing smiles back and forth out here in cyberspace - which is such a great thing about comments like yours - so uplifting and so sunny. I'm glad I am able, by way of words, to make your heart smile - warms mine deeply - you've been such a special friend out here and I cherish that the most. Smiles are coming your way, Jenny :)
DeleteShe who helps herself is in good hands...I love that! Glad to 'see' you here. It's been awhile.
ReplyDeleteWelcome Jenn - so wonderful to see you here, your beautiful Avatar puts a smile on my face. Thank you for dropping by, I'm glad you like my quote - it came to me as I realized how much I rely on myself to get me through my days. Hugs, Jenny
DeleteHi Jenny - it's good to see you around again ... life's journey has it's own route ... mine now is mine and I dictate the way, yet the snags of life will slip in occasionally ... but I feel more myself finally and now can progress towards that future.
ReplyDeleteMy thoughts to you and to hear your strength is still there ... look after yourself and see you around again soon .. j'espere! Cheers Hilary
Dear, dear Hilary - you are a beacon of hope. I have vicariously lived in your shoes and am now wearing them...mother is stable, but the road now is uncharted and difficult - thank you so much for your kindness and words of encouragement, both on and off blogger.
DeleteI'm happy to read that you are finally yourself again...it does take time, that's for sure - it takes time.
Thank you so much for dropping by - you put a smile on my face with your visit. Hugs, Jenny
"She had outrun hell's wrath before" - love that! Beautifully written. I feel able to help myself these days, but I also feel supported by something much larger than myself - whatever that is, whatever name you give it.
ReplyDeleteDear Melissa - I am delighted that you see this post as "beautifully written" - what a wonderful comment - thank you.
DeleteLike you, I too feel the support of something "larger than myself" guiding me on a deep level, showing me the way when I cannot see it myself. I am definitely in touch with something beyond my mere mortal-ness and that has been the true anchor as I find myself adrift at this time in my life. Thank you for stopping by and leaving a little bit of yourself behind. Hugs, Jenny
Dear Jenny, I'm thinking of the visit with you and your mom in her place and enjoying the memories. May you hands be strong with calm. xo Carole
ReplyDeleteDear Carole - I have fond memories of your visit over here and look forward to repeating it in the near future - maybe after my house gets its facelift in March...ah...I can hardly wait.
DeleteOh to be strong, both in heart and hands; these have been trying times but for the most part I'm managing. Thank you so much for stopping by, both here and off blog - I always enjoy our chats.
Hugs, Jenny
If you need a break, you can always catch a ferry and we can go play for the day! xo
DeleteIt's right tempting...and I may be heading over that way in the next month or so on a little business errand, whereby I will be over on the Island for a day or two - I'd love to spend some time getting out with our sketchbooks capturing your beautiful part of the Island.
DeleteThanks for the incentive, Carole, and the kindness. Hugs, Jenny xo
Sorry, late to the party, again, but loved this:
ReplyDelete"She who helps herself is in good hands.”
Jenny Pearson
I couldn't agree more. Loved this writing and the sentiments.
It's never to late to drop in on this party, dear D.G. - lovely to have you here. :)
DeleteI figure when we help ourselves we truly are in the best hands...that being said it is a real blessing when those near and dear to us reach out and offer theirs when our own can no longer manage the load.
Thanks for stopping by. Hugs, Jenny
Great short piece, enjoyed the read.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Charmaine.
DeleteWelcome to Pearson Report...do take a look around...if you have the time.
With smiles, Jenny
And...thank you so much for following. :)
DeleteYes, helping yourself is vital, but sometimes so much easier after a long, strong hug from an understanding friend.
ReplyDeleteSue
Dear Sue - thank you for dropping in. Your comment is too true -"a long, strong hug from an understanding friend" is often the vital foundation for good self-help to rest on.
DeleteI'm very lucky to be blessed with friends that hug long and strong...don't know what I'd do without them.
Hugs to you for staying in touch, Jenny.