IN LIGHT OF THE UPCOMING SIWC…
I joined a writers group - GRIND WRITERS.
Through this group I have learned how to FREE WRITE.
it is quite liberating…
and very helpful if I’m feeling stuck with my writing.
Below is the free write photo prompt...
and my piece for it.
It’s 647 words long. (about 3 1/2 minutes of reading)
POUR A COFFEE, TEA, OR SOMETHING STRONGER, AND DIG IN!
This free write photo prompt came with the following questions:
Robin Williams' death: how has it affected you?
What sort of issues has his suicide caused you to think about?
I remember exactly where I was sitting when I heard the news about Robin Williams.
I had just toiled for six and a half hours helping my friend dig up the side of his house. He’s building a lane house out back of his existing house, and since he had given up his free time last summer to help me with my house renovations I wanted to be there for him.
Why is this info important? It isn’t, except to let you know life was still moving along after Robin’s death.
My first reaction to this news was NO WAY, not him. He’s too funny to kill himself. Why it is I thought funny equals happy I don’t know.
In light of my own heaviness these last few months I wondered about funny and happy and laughter; words I would use to describe me under normal circumstances.
But, I hadn’t been happy, funny, or even laughing lately, in fact I had been quite down.
When my friend’s wife told me this bit of news she’d gleaned earlier in the day, as Gerry and I were huffing and puffing under 30 degree heat, I got annoyed. And angry. And miffed.
I’m a parent, so was Robin. How do you do this to your kids? What was so bad in his life that this was his only option - I wanted answers damn it. From him.
It took me a while before compassion and empathy sprang to the forefront.
For the following three days, after hearing this news at my friend’s house just prior to eating a much anticipated meal after a day of hard labour, I was quite blue. I didn’t initially attribute it to more than the Super Moon influence. (Yes, yes, I buy into all that - I’m Pisces and we are all about planetary alignment.)
But as the days drifted on, and I slowly found my inner smile, I realized his death hit me harder than I was consciously aware. I had been teetering on the very ledge he jumped from.
In light of some overwhelming health news, back in March, and my sense of loneliness amongst friends and family, I can see how it could be, for some, the only option.
I’m not cut of that cloth, and in all my fifty-six years on the planet taking my life has never been a pressing thought. Now, that being said, there are a few lives I’d like to see snuffed out, but mine is not one of them.
I’m saddened, not because we lost a comic genius, or a great actor, but because no one could reach him, no one was there for him - and that is something I get; it’s something I totally relate to.
At what point will my stoic veneer finally crack letting my soul slip away and my life spark flicker out in the soft evening wind.
Do any of us really know what’s going on inside the head sitting, standing, lying next to us… well, do we? Maybe for a very select few the answer might be, “yes, I do know what’s going on around me”.
But for the masses I would say we are no better then those ostriches with their collective heads in the sand - we really see only one life and that’s our own… how are you affecting me, how is the weather affecting me, how is my job affecting me…. me, me, me, me, me.
Well, what about me… do you know anything about me?
Oh sure, my hair is blond, eyes blue, as you’ve vaguely observed.
But what about behind the blue - look closely what do you see… do you see the wall I’ve built? The one that’s so high you will never get over it, nor will I be free from behind it. Do you see the decay, the neglect?
Well, do you? (647 word count)
So now… the questions:
DO YOU FEEL WELL CONNECTED, AND UNDERSTOOD, BY THOSE CLOSE TO YOU?
DO YOU SEE LIFE AS A HARD, UPHILL STRUGGLE?
HOW DO YOU SEE SUICIDE - IS IT A COPOUT, OR A SOLUTION?
Footnote: for an overview of what "free writing" entails please read THIS.